There are so many ways to go about putting my life into lists. Things that didn’t happen, BFF’s that didn’t stay as forever as we thought, songs I listened to on repeat. I could go on forever. But the one I spent all night thinking about was best friends. My life is a series of amazing friends, not all of them are still in my life, but they all played a HUGE role in me becoming the person that I am right now.
My first best friend was David. From kindergarten through the beginning of third grade David and I were so close that when he broke his leg really badly, my teacher actually took me out of school to go see him in the hospital. Thick as thieves on the playground, we were both Marine Corps brats. Then the military did its thing. We both moved to the same state when the new deployments went out, but it was never the same. (Also I just realized my first crush was named David too, is this a thing? Was it the name?)
Next was Rhiannon and Drew, man that was crazy for me. I was in a new state where seasons were a thing like I had never seen, and I got TWO best friends!! It was magical, we played pretend like nothing I could have imagined before. We were heroes from the past wielding swords against imagined bad guys. We played Heroes Quest, and became those heroes on that quest! We played computer games together. Our time was short lived, because we moved again. Not far, but blocks seem like miles at that age.
There was the age of two Katy’s. Katie and Katy. That was fun, and I messed that up. I also messed up many of the friendships after. Forever isn’t as easy as I imagined. It is easy to say people grow apart, it is harder to admit that for many years I wasn’t a great person. I could blame so many things, but it was just me. I was a horrible teenage girl. No seriously, all the thing people hate about teenage girls? I was those things.
Then there is now. The best friend of 14 years. She is amazing, inspiring, tough, and a wonderful person to boot. Being 3000 miles apart doesn’t keep us from being best friends. Just makes it that much funnier that she knows when I need a call or text. (She’s got best-friend telepathy, and crazy psychic powers!) We can not talk for months at a time, but when we do talk it is like no time has passed, being her friend is always one of my favorite titles. She is a mom, not something I ever plan to be, but she does it so well! She is a rock-star, and my rock. We’ve had our share of hard times, don’t think its always been easy, and she has had to deal with my badness occasionally, but she always forgives me.
I may have Depression, but my Lizard she helps me fight off its lies. She reminds me that there may be a list of BFF’s that didn’t last forever, but I have the best BFF I could ask for.